10/07/2024
Yesterday I had to say goodbye to my sweet Mama. She was my best friend, confidante, and her creative genius inspired me to become the artist I am today. It’s so difficult and confusing to lose her right as I am becoming a parent myself. It feels cruel and unfair, and my heart aches at the fact that Aster will never get to know her in person. Perhaps some deeper meaning about this will become clear to me at some point, perhaps not. I am however reassured that my Mama has been released from the pain of battling cancer for 6 years and her soul is free.
Before she was taken away we lit candles and incense around her, said our goodbyes, and as the funeral home started to wheel her away I noticed her rose water sitting on the coffee table that she wore everyday. “Wait!” I cried and pulled back the white sheet that they had wrapped around her and misted her face. She would have wanted to exit just as she existed in this life: beautiful and always smelling good.